Counting stars
I remember the days we used to count stars. If you would look at the history and popular fiction, I was not the only one who counted the stars. Maybe shooting stars, maybe stable ones, maybe slowly drifting satellites in the evening sky. I am sure at least once you have you looked at the sky full of stars. Of course, this is not applicable to ones who live in England or Wales all your life. How, unfair, for this amazing site you should travel far into the corners of the world. Just to see a star.
Betelgeuse, Bellatrix, Rigel. I used to name the stars in Orian constellation. Not only this I knew some other stars, and planets. Evening star, and maybe Jupiter, through a telescope and the gigantic moon. I used to count satellites, to see who counts the most, with my brother, when we had nothing else to do. Once all the owls flown away to their nests, and it's too dark to see them anyway, those, shy little stars appear in cloudless skies one by one. And identifying satellites among them is a lot of difficult and lot of fun. It is like finding a red color marble in a bag of marbles.
A jungle of numbers
Counting, is fun. That's why I liked mathematics. However, life as it took a different course, I forgot how I used to count. I forgot it is about numbers. Every achievement is measured in numbers. How many, places you have visited. How many rooms in your house. What is the rating of the hotel Budapest that you visited. Even films, even songs, even sounds are measured in decibels and numbers. We live in a world modeled by human invented numbers, and We have forgotten it is our invention for our ease of use and now lost in a jungle of numbers. This jungle of numbers is more difficult to traverse when you are a seeker, more difficult than the concrete jungle as, it is built in your brain. Carved by our teachers and reinforced by our bosses.
In this jungle of numbers occasionally we come across some numbers which teach us lessons of live. Even the meaning of life. But we just glance at them and move onto a different number in the next second. I am going to tell you such a number now. Remember this for your life.
If you are a man your average life expectancy in days is 25842
If you are a women, your average life expectancy in days is 27740
Counting game of life.
I used numbers from world average life expectancy in years to calculate the days - to point out counting game of life. If you are so into counting you can use exact values from your country, or even from your doctor, considering your co-morbidities. Now the important thing is counting right? How many days of this have you spent. When I look at this number I realize, "Shit, this is not infinity". It is not infinity at all. It is totally finite. It seems the game of life is lost even from the day one. As there is a wall at the end of the counting, That I am going to crash at this. As I am still a young, enthusiastic soul just like you, I am still in my acceleration phase. And I crave stupid things the life has to offer, and again remember this is just the average life expectancy. I have to tackle through all the dumb ways to die, before the natural end is reached. I have to exercise, regularly, eat healthy food, and keep my mind sane, still avoid the random rocks falling from Rockey mountains when I drive to Mexico. What about you? Have you count your days? If you are, I suggest you count it good. The game of life has already begun, by default you are one of the players.
I have spent almost half of them. I am not sure what about your situation. Maybe you are at the beginning of this. Maybe you are at the end. However, my friend if you look at the numbers you would see, even the beginning is not far from the end. It doesn't matter where you are, but we are just two leaves separated by space but floating on the same current in water. I fear death. Not because I have sinned. I am not a saint. Hence, I have done my deeds. I fear because, of uncertainty it holds. And I need to know the meaning of life. I need to know, if the god exist or I exist before I am dead. That is a simple argument but holds a valuable truth. If death is inevitable for all living things. I want to know What is living. and Who is living?
If there is no-one living, would there be any death?
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